Issue's and My Ride to Work

It seems that anything we go through.. Finance, Faith, People, or any other issue's. At the end of the day we only have God's Word to turn too. It covers everything. Although I know we need to live by faith, man... I need God to stir me up and others. I need to be able to physically touch Him, or Him me. I need this life changing experience. I need this Hope. I need the Holy Ghost to fall upon me. I do believe I already have all this in me, yet at times I find myself questioning is it enough. I understand by Faith. But on the way to work, sometimes listening to the Word of God, the horrorable (did I spell that right), feeling comes over me, is God, Jesus, and the Holy Ghost real? And, when I think of that possibility, I feel physically ill, and heartbroken. So I say to God, I need to know. Help me. I then look around at the sky, trees, sun, moon, and stars, all of life and realize this all testifies of Him. Then still in the car on the way to work I praise and worship Him. Knowing I've been through this ride before, and probably will take it again.